Joshua James Bernard

We know that some days on earth can be pretty gloomy. The reason why we think they are gloomy is because there is someone important missing in our lives. We know they are safe and "ok" with God, Jesus, Mary, and the angels. Its just the pain in our hearts that makes us sad. Why? We ask this question all the time. Why did God take them and not me? What did he/she do? The answer is they did nothing wrong. God is calling us home. Earth is our temporary home; it is not our permanent home. Heaven is our permanent home, with God. When someone passes away and they are close to us or they are a loved one, a piece of us go weith them. More like our hearts. We wish we could talk to them, or see them everyday. But, we can only wish. They are with us. you might not think they are but they are. No matter what! Remember this is our temporary home, I am with you always. this is what we should think. 


                                                                                                  love u love Sissy~XO~XO~XO~ 

Uncle Josh,you sent me signs from heaven this week. When I was waiting for the bus one morning there was a beautiful pigeon in the bush that I stand by in the morning waiting for the bush.When I got off the bus the other day, there was a beautiful butterfly that flew next to me and i new it was you. I miss you so much. I love you so much.Thank you for sending tose signs because I know it was you watching over me.♥ XOXO

I love and miss u so so much. I don't know what I would do without u. You and David are the best uncles in the whole world. Please come visit Memaw in her dreams she misses you so much. We all miss you every second of every day. Including Memaw. It was Papa's birthday Tuesday. It was Father's Day a few weeks back. You would be a great dad. Josh, you are such a loving uncle, son, son-in-law, and brother. And you would be a great father. I love u and miss you. Come visit me in my dreams. PLEASE. love you love Camryn. I am 12 years now. love you love Camryn. ~XO~XO~<3~<3~

I'll see you again. Missing you is a heartache. But loving you is great. Walking with you is like walking with butterflies. In Heaven we'll meet again. Part of me went with you, went you left me. But I'll see you again. Mom, my eyes are sparkling in the stars. With you by my side. I will see you again, one day. Don't worry I'll be ok. Look at the stars in the night sky. You will see my eyes sparkling. I love you and you know that. But, I promise one day, I will see you again.


                                                                                  By: Camryn Mayeux
                                                                                        6/13/14
                                                                                        age: 12
                                                                                  To: Memaw
                                                                                        from:
                                                                                        Joshua

Hi Josh.I love and miss  you so very much. You are in my little heart forever. I wish you were here. You and David are the best uncles in the world. I wish I could walk in a room and see your face again. You died when I was 2 but know I am 10. But thats ''ok''. Every time I look at the picture of me and you on the lawnmower by the pond it makes me miss you even more. I wish we could do that again. I wish I could sleep at your house like with you. Can you help me not cry every time i see your picture. All it does is that it makes me sad because I know your not here. I am also sick so can you pray for me. I wish me and you could've went hunting and fishing. I love to hunt and fish like you. I also like playing sports like baseball basketball and football. Well I wish I could talk with you for a while but I can't. That sucks. Well I love and miss you so very much. I have to go now.love you love Sissy.Bye~LOVE AND MISS YOU!~XO~XO~I wish you coud've taught me your tricks on to hunt and fish.

Josh, just wanted you to know you would be sooo proud of Karlie right now.. She is now a junior and taking CNA classes. She will be graduating soon and then on to further her nursing degree. Still very hard headed tho, but I am going to make sure she continues her dream. She misses you so much and talks about u all the time. Hailey has grown so much she will be 9 in a couple of days. She is one of the brightest children you would be so proud of her. She is very strong willed too. Right now (as I am sure you know) both Jess and I are having a hard time. Please just give us the strength. Love you so much as miss u. MY GIRLS WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THEIR JOSH.... XOXOXO

I love you so much and miss you and I still use the nick name you gave to me Gabby.

Life in heaven is good~But it's sad for us on earth~Those in heaven we miss so much~
With Jesus and God with those in heaven~There is nothing to worry about~We love and miss those in heaven.Those in heaven miss and love us too down here~And every Christmas or other holidays~ those in heaven are with us

At the bottom of the page she drew a great big heart~So much love and knowledge in one so young~Camryn is 9 years old
 Josh you live on forever in our hearts~We know you are with us always

Josh, I miss you so much.  I think about you all the time.  I think about how our lives would be if you were still here with us.  You use to help  me with Camryn and Gage.  I am so glad that they got to know you and they remember you.  I know that you see Christian but I just with that he could have meet you.  He's a mess.  Alot of people say that he looks like you, which is very good.  Dwight says Gage reminds him of you- the way he acts and his looks!  He is also very lucky.  We've had so many good times together.  I am so glad that we were as close as we were!  I love you and I miss you so very much!!!!!  Love, Nan 

I think about you every second of everyday and this time of the year is even more~The jasmine and honeysucle is in bloom~I so often think of the time we'd walk pass the pond and you'd always ask~What smells so good moma? and I'd always tell you what it was and I'd always tell you that this must be the closest to what Heaven smells like~Now you know exactly what Heaven smells like and I'm here left to only imagine~One day Josh in God's time I will see you again~I so look forward to that day~What a glorious day that will be~Watch for your balloons today~We couldn't release them Friday on your Angelday it rained all day~Watch for the full moon tonight~Always remember when you're looking at the moon I'm looking at it too~I didn't nearly think when I'd tell you that I'd be the one left behind and you'd be with our Lord in Heaven~I'd tell you that so you'd remember me when I was gone~We just never know what a day will bring~Now I'm left watching the sunsets/sunrises/moon/starlit skys and you're up in Heaven with our Lord~I know you are always with me Josh~I just miss you so~I miss those great big hugs only you could give with so much love~I miss you're happiness~I miss everthing about you Josh~I love you so very much~Love moma

JOSH FOR SO MANY REASONS ITS WRONG FOR YOU NOT TO BE HERE WITH US.  THE GOOD LORD NEEDED YOU AND I CANT ASK WHY.  I REMEMBER WHEN WE STAYED STUCK IN THE BACK YARD DRINKING BUDWEISER.  THAT HOLE IS FILLED IN NOW.  ALTHOUGH NO ONE CAN STILL PASS THERE. STILL SINKS TO NO END.  MY SON WYATT IS STILL TO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND THAT STORY.  HE HAS HEARD IT THOUGH.  WHEN WE RIDE THE TRACTOR OR 4 WHEELER HE LOOKS THERE IN THAT CORNER AND HE SMILES AND LAUGHS SOMETIMES HE WAVES NOW HE POINTS THERE WITH HIS SET OF PAWS.  HE HAS A SET OF HANDS LIKE YOURS.  I KNOW YOU STILL THER LAUGHING.  HOLDING ONE HAND UP AND YELLING "LET IT EAT CUZIN"  NOW WE HAVE A PAVILLION AND SWING SET IN THAT CORNER OF THE YARD. WISH YOU COULD COME HAVE A COLD ONE WITH US.  GUESS ILL JUST KEEP YELLING "LET IT EAT CUZIN"  LOVE YA KEEP AN EYE ON WYATT AND HIS MOM THEY NEED IT!!!!!!

Let me start off by saying Happy Easter Josh!!  It has been a while since I looked at this site because everytime I do I cry.  How is it up there!!  The other night I went outside for a second and there it was THE MOON...  It was so big and beautiful and immediately you came into my head.  We are so lucky to have such a strong bond with our family like we do.  I know mamee and you were looking at it also.  Memories..... remember when we would all leave dad's or uncle Carl's house and go 4-wheeler riding down the lake at night and get full of mud. (some outlaws)  It seemed so simple, but yet those memories to me as a child were some of the best.  Funniest memory.... remember the day Pop was babysitting me and you and I broke one of mama's glass dolls on her coffee table so we decided to hide under the chair so no one would know it was us.  Pop didn't know where we were at and started calling for us.  When he found us you told on me!!!!!!  No biggy.. I didn't get in trouble.  It is memories like that that I look back on and can only smile about.  They are so innocent, but yet some of the most memorable!!!!  Again, Happy Easter and we ALL LOVE YOU and miss you dearly.  Amanda  

Thanksgiving Day~November 26,2009

Me Maw,You are the best Memaw in the world~I hope you have a good Thanksgiving and you know that Josh is with you on this wonderful day~I hope Josh is helping you cook for everyone to know that Josh is with you always~Love you~Love Camryn!!!HAPPY THANKSGIVING

This is a treasure to me that I will cherish always~You are always in everything the babies do~They always make cards and draw pictures for me from you Josh~They are such precious babies~Gage,Camryn, Christian Joshua and Gabrielle~They are such special BLESSINGS~Thank You Lord

Josh, I guess I didn't finish what I had to say. I just can not get you off my mind. Usually, anytime something happens or I have a day like this I call your mom. Is that what you are trying to tell me? Do I need to call her? I keep your picture in my truck on my sun visor so I can look at you every day. You know, I feel so selfish.  We had a certain bond but, not like you and Jess. I know how hard it is for me I can not imagine how she feels. You made her so happy. I know she is able to go on everyday because you or with her. I wish I could see you are atleast a sign that could let me know that you are there and okay. (even though I know u are)

 

Missing you and wish I knew what you were trying to tell me!!! That's you though. Love to play/mess with people or keep people in suspense. LOL!!

Josh,

 

You have been on my mind so much lately. I miss you so much. You are so kind and loving. I was pregnant for the second time (yeah second) all alone with no where to turn and I can remeber you hugging me and telling me it would all be alright. You said I did not have to worry because you and Jess were here for me anytime I needed. You even tried to hook me up with one of your partners. (ha!) You were so good to my sister, me, Karlie (my gosh Josh she loves you so much and misses you so much), mom and dad. I remember thinking everthing would be okay because I had you too. You were right things are okay. Dwaine (hailey's father) and I got together and are now married. You were going to be Hailey's godfather. Man, listen to me "WERE" , you "ARE" Hailey's godfather. Josh there are some many times during the day, during the afternoon and at night that I replay those last few days in my head.  I remeber you and Jess coming over a few days before and y'all were talking about your wedding day. You both had a day in mind, but Dwaine wouldn't have been home on that day. We checked his schedule and I (of course) suggested April 23 or the weekend before and y'all chose the 23rd.  Was God trying to tell us something. Two days before you left our lives, you came to our house. You played with Karlie and y'all laughed so much, she even got mad at you for picking at her. I remember Jess had picked up some drinks for me at CVS and as y'all were leaving you were telling us about your trip with David the next night. I will never forget that moment as you unloaded the drinks for me and set them on the steps I remember saying "Josh you better be careful and don't get drunk you have a baptism to go to the next day", love y'all and becareful will talk with y'all tomorrow.  The next night we fried fish at our house. We invited mom and dad, and you and Jess, (of course, you were on your trip), We ate, and talked about the Baptism and then everyone left. Jess wanted to take Hailey back with her to mom's (Karlie was at her dad's), so I told her okay. Me and Dwaine would like to have some quite time (you know with the new baby here and all).  I will never forget the phone ringing that night and the look on my dad's face and his yelling and screaming from the top of his lungs when I got to mom's. I know you are in heaven now looking out for us all and you are happy, but I just wish you could give ME some kind of sign that you are okay. I want to put those last few days behind me and right now I can not. I know you have touched so many other lives more than mine, but we had that brother-in-law, sister-in-law bond and you meant so much to me and to all my family. My gosh, you were even there when I went in to labor!! You freaked out and got upset cause I was screaming so much (ha) and walked our for a while, but YOU WERE THERE. You always new what to do and say. Karlie....Hum... that's a different subject now. Josh, Karlie misses you so much. There are mornings that I wake her up to find her clinching the picture of you and her in her hand.  She is having a hard time dealing with this. Karlie is having a hard time with a lot right now. Please look over her and help guide her in the right direction. Though, you may not have been in her life for very long I WILL make sure you are always in her mind and heart. She knows how good you were and that you are her godfather. She's very stuborn kinda like her aunt so you may need to do a little more "Watching" over HER. I know you are looking out for Jess you wouldn't be doing anything less and for that I love you. With you watching over her and her knowing that, it is keeping her strong.  You will always be in our hearts. Love you so much! Mel