Joshua James Bernard

Tonight and always I keep u in my thoughts and ur family in my prayers! Wishing u sweet dreams Josh! xoxoxoxox's

Hope you have a Sweet and Wonderful Valentine's!

It has taken me almost 5 years to tell our story, but I feel like I need to get it out. We meet through friends and needless to say hit it off right away!! It was in June when we meet. I would have never thought that day would change my life forever but it did in a huge way. April 23 2004 was suppose to be one of the happiest days of our lives but instead God took you home. I remember getting up that morning, we were excited because we were going meet the priest that was going to marry us and  set a wedding date. Which we did we set it for exactally a year later! We were to be married April 23 2005. After we left the church that day, we went get something to eat then we sat outside and you laughed at me because I thought a weed was a plant! You left that day to go hunting around 2 I went shopping for wedding stuff, I was so excited. I remember calling you on the way to Alex because I was stopped by the train. We talked  for awhile and said I love you. I called you that night at 7:13 I wish I had known it was the last time I would talk to you because I would have never hung with you. We talked said ggod night and we loved each other.. That was the last time I heard from your lips I love you.. I ask God everyday why, I know I shouldn't but I still we would have had a great life I know it. I will never forget when I got the phone call... It took days to believe it. I remember going to sleep crying and waking up crying. Josh my life is so incomplete without you in it. What do I do? I tried moving on and I have a precious baby boy, but im still not complete. I miss you so much Josh. I hope everynight to see you are hear your voice what I would not give to hear you tell me you love me. We were soul mates and your gone and I am here so what now. What do I do with my life? I would not change anything we did during our life together it was perfect you were the best man I could ever imagine. I am so alone now that I dont feel like going on with my life I want to be with you, but I have a son and thats what keeps me going! I love you Josh more then I could ever express and I miss everything about you. I will meet you in my dreams. I will never say goodbye just see you later. Goodnight. Love you always, YOU have my heart!

It's hard to start a new day without you much less a new year-I sit and I think of all the Christmas and New Years when you were with us-Oh Josh if we could just have you back-I know you can't come back to us but one day in God's time I will be able to go to you-We released our balloons to Heaven yesterday to all our angels in Heaven-It was a beautiful day-I miss everything about you Josh but you know what I miss the most,Your happiness.You were always so happy,so excited about everything,that would always rub off on everyone around you.

I miss the way you showed so much love to all-I miss hearing you say "I love you too moma"I miss those wonderful hugs,I miss our projects we use to get together to do,I miss everything about you.I miss your beautiful smile-Josh I know one day we will all be a family again-I so look forward to that day-What a glorious day that will be-I love and miss you so much Josh-Our memories is what keep us going but sometimes it's those beautiful memories that make us miss you even more.

I thank God for all our beautiful memories of you and with you-I know you are happy in Heaven-I just miss you so much-Until the day I see you again I love you with all my heart-You live on forever in our hearts-Always remember,When you're looking at the moon I'm looking at it too-Together we will watch every beautiful sunset /sunrise together.

Love Always and Forever-Love Moma

I thought of all the Thanksgiving we had before and I thank God for all the memories-All good memories but sometimes it's the memories that hurt so much-Missing you so much-longing to see you and to hold you-You always had dinner with us on Thanksgiving then after lunch you'd be all packed and ready to head for the woods-Always so happy and so excited -You always made time for your family-I'm sure Thanksgiving was beautiful in Heaven-I'm sure you saw all the balloons we released to Heaven in memory of you and all the angels -One day we will know all the beauties of Heaven-Everyday I wake is one day closer to thr day I see you again-I love you Josh

Josh, 

   I used to always be scared to death, and i always prayed to god to let me see all my kids married and living on there own, but I am a firm beleiver that we're all meeting again.  We miss you josh, watch over My Grand Babies and my kids, keep Brad steady when he is climbing a pole or fixing a wire, and watch over everybody else. Tell Thad and Poppa i said i love them, and everyone else!! Love you!!

HA Come tell me in my dreams where you plug in your computer!!!

Uncle Alferdie

See you in Heaven!!

I remember we had so much fun together. Before you left I remember you told me that on my next report card that you give me money even though I really was not goin to take it. I miss the fun that we used to have. You allways were there for me and I know you still are. well got to go so I love you bye-bye.

My Beautiful baby boy --My greatest accomplishment in life are my children--To be called Mom is such a treasure-MeMaw is the next best thing--Grand babies are an extension of our children -Thank you Lord for all my Blessings

This afternoon Sitting outside watching the babies play I kept thinking of when You ,Tammy and David were little-I use to love playing in the yard with you'll.Especially in the Fall-I'd rake the leaves up in a pile to burn  and as soon as i'd rake them together you'll would Jump in the middle of the pile and I'd join you'll trowing leaves over our heads--Thank God for the wonderful memories-I often tell Nan and David that this is the best time of their lives while their babies are with them -Underfoot-Being able to tuck them in at night-Knowing that they are right ther with them-I miss that--I miss everything about you Josh-Imiss your happiness -your beautiful smile-I miss those wonderful hugs that only you could give-That special hug always left us knowing how much you loved us-I thank God for the time you were with us Josh-We just weren't ready to let you go ,but we never would have been I thank God for all the wonderful memories--I thank God for all my blessings I so look forward to the day I see you again- I miss you so very much Josh--LOVE MOM-You live on forever in our hearts-Everyday I wake is one day closer to the day I see you again

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Climbing a pole is a rush

A profession some men won't touch

Those who do it love it that much

Braving the destruction of the storm

 

The musical hum of the line

The constant ringing of the phone

A shadow of a man

So brave

 

To light night into day

A wonderful soul

A son,A brother,A co-worker,A friend

His home away from home

 

God has called you home

And still you go on

In the hearts of the brave

That risk their lives everyday

 

They continue to strap on their gear

Fighting hidden fears

They continue to climb

The poles again and again

 

In loving memory of Josh

We love you so very much

You live on in our hearts forever

You are never forgotten

 

 

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Where do I begin? It has taken me a long time to write this, I could probably go on and on. Josh and I became friends when I was around 13. He was the most outgoing person I had ever met. We became best friends almost instantly. He eventully introduced me to my husband and for that I cannot possibly thank him enough. He stood by my side when times were difficult for me. When Clyde and I decided to break up for awhile it was Josh that sat with me at my house and held me while I cried my heart out. He would take me places and make sure I was never alone to cry by myself. I later refused to marry Clyde if Josh could not be our best man! He was so handsome standing beside Clyde in his tux. There are way too many memories to write about. Our best memories were when we all got together and played cards in the outdoor kitchen at Mrs. Marys. I can still remember those times just like it was yesterday. Josh taught me alot about just being yourself. He never met a stranger and was always the life of the party. I will forever be grateful to him for everything that he did for me and Clyde. I had my lil boy about 2 weeks before Josh left us, and I thank God every single day that Josh had the opportunity to meet Landon. I will never forget that day. He called landon Clyde, JR- JR cause Landon looked exactly like Clyde. I want to tell Josh thank you for everyday that you were there for me, everytime you called to see if I were ok, and everytime you told me that you loved me and gave me one of the Josh hugs (nobody could give hugs like Josh). I will remember you always! Until we meet again in the clouds, wait for me! I love and miss you every single day! Leslie

Memories.  It is so funny Josh... of all the memories I have the one that will always stand out the most is probably the oldest.  When we were kids and you always took me riding on your four wheeler.... I'll never forget the looks on everyones' faces when I ran into the shed! I'm so glad I have it on video to relive the moment.  I love you so so so so so much!

 

Steph

O- Joshy Woshy where do I start.  We had so many great memories together.  I always thought of you and loved you like Dwight.  I loved to be with you. you could always make me laugh!!  I remember one night a bunch of us went out and we all had a lil too much to drink.  Well needless to say I got really sick and all you kept saying was Sneaky, Youz a fool.  We all went back to my house and I made you feed me mac - n- cheese.   You were the best buddy ever and I miss you so much!!!  I love you Josh!  See you in my dreams.

Alwyas,

Sneaky

Bridgette's letter summed up a little of what i wanted to tell you. HA. I'll never forget all the times you took us riding in your truck, I think sometimes we would aggravate you but, hey thats what little cousins are for. Bridgette and I would turn the radio really loud, and you would sing louder then that. I'll never forget you singing "who am i peedy puff mother f-er" you would scream it, and we would laugh so much, then we would switch it to MIKE JONES, then something country, your something else. I always dreamed since I was younger of going out with you and Brad, but i know you come with me, everytime I go.  You are the most down to earth person I know, didn't care what peeople thought of you, b/c heck you didnt need to impress anyone, I looked up to you and still do to this day, i want to be as good a person as you are! I just wish you were here b/c I wanted so bad for your kids to pester and annoy me just as bad as i did you. I miss you more then words can say. You havent visited me in a while, in my dreams, you need to. I love you cuz. Oh by the way, keep giving me those signs that you do, for your mom, she loves it when you do that. I love you cuz. See you in Heaven!!!